I'm so upset, the aftereffect is so serious.

What upset me?

Two.

First, trust. I need trust, but it seems someone i do care don't trust me. I do know it's not about me, it's about business and the whole partnership idea was from their parents, i do know everything, i do understand their thoughts, but it still hurts me that i don't earn their trust. This is not a complain, and I'm not blame anyone, this just pop up to my head. I'm upset.

Second, friends. What does the word mean? The word means friends can fxxk eath other but can't even have a kiss? Or maybe friends can help each other jerk off when we have the urge? I don't think so, if friends do do such things like that, is this relationship can still be called "friends"? Or that kind of  relationship we can call it sex partner with spiritual connection. I met someone like I said, a good connection, good feelings, this person treat me like a good friend can get in touch onece or twice a month, actually when he remember me. I do attraced to the person in the spiritual way, I am honest, real, easy talking, funny......but not attracted by my appearance. This person really do attracted to me in every way, but I am not thin, I wear glasses, I have a hundred reasons the person can not take me as a "fidanzato". So the result is we only can be friends, friends that can jerk off together or even have some fxxks without kisses.

 

 

健身房体能测试：

身高180CM，体重89KG

胸围100CM，腰围97CM

脂肪比例26（正常12-18）

身高体重比27（正常20）

俯卧撑21个（不标准）

仰卧起坐一分钟22个（只能做22个）

单腿平衡20秒（正常超过1分钟）

不测不知道，一测吓一跳，成正方块了都